Rejoining the world
In two weeks I'll be starting a new job. I spent many months resisting getting a full-time job again, until I finally saw that that's actually what I wanted and I was resisting my own love. I have no idea why I want this, but something tells me it's that I want to be around people, interacting with them, participating in life. I had an idea over the last year that I should create a lot of space in my life for awakening to take over me and burn up all the pain and ego inside of me. I didn't know what that means, I just knew Jim did it, and he recommends it, and so I diligently set about creating this space. The way I did that was to not seek a full-time job, but instead to set up a consulting agreement where I could work from home and only work half time. This, I thought, would also give me time to get better physically. It definitely helped. And it has helped to have a paycheck again and to be using my brain again to feel a little bit more like I'm participating ...